hi, blog. I wrote something for you, but posted it instead to my "sad green blog." seemed more appropriate there.

I wonder, ca n I post here anymore? Why can't I?

I wonder, ca n I post here anymore?

choufan19: do you think the people we like usually like us back and that the only thing that keeps anything from happening is our inability to believe they reciprocate those feelings?
choufan19: is it that we actually cannot appreciate who God has made us to be enough to value that and to value the fact that others can actually see it in us as well?
choufan19: are we our own worst enemies when it comes to being loved????

A the blog of sweet memory

or at least memory

which isn't old enough to be memory

not sweet anyways

oh what do I mean

This blog had a lot of creativity. I consider it a springboard for the other three. Ack--there are such lame things one says while blogging (: Emberassing! Still, it's good to learn how to get your words into the public's eye regardless of pride of shame. It's a wonderful exercize that teaches one not only how to elucidate one's thoughts but how to sharpen one's mind and then let it fly--no looking back--no regrets. It's tough, but so's life. As bro says, "Pain is weakness leaving the body."

I wonder sometimes if I suffer from clinical depression. I think I was depressed last semester. Makes me sad to think so, but God was with me the entire time so it was ok. All the symptoms match. It was probably from high stress. But I also get depressed when I’m not stressed enough. I was always an anxious kid. High anxiety can cause it. Everything seems bigger than it is. But college causes it too. But I wasn’t in college when I would get it. I wonder if I need someone to help me through this? I wonder if I have heart problems? I blacked out on the treadmill that day. Couldn’t get a breath. And my heart-rate skyrockets in no time when I work out. It was weird. I wish I knew these things.

why is my blog not working anymore ):

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